” When the skies are grey, take a shower and the blues will be washed away. “

”面對著面尷尬停住了時間
下一秒是不是要揮手說再見
只要閉上雙眼 就看到你的臉
回憶裏盤旋著對你的想念”

…an excerpt of my first song that will be recorded. I went into the studio for the first trial recording the other day. There are SO many details that calls for attention. Being the maiden recording, I was definitely unsatisfied with myself. The road ahead is definitely going to be a tough one. Sometimes, I get jolted by a sudden fear of what I’ve put myself in…加油吧！！

Everytime I hear a beautiful song, I wish that I can do the same. To write a song that will tug at a person’s heart strings, that will see someone through their good and bad times… Just like how a good song does for me.

I haven’t been talking much, writing much in hope of re-directing all forms of self expression to song-writing. Yet, I am stuck. I am suffering from a severe music block. I try to sift through all the messiness within me for one heart song, but all that is coming out is noise. Ugly noise. 😦

It’s been a week since I stepped out of the plane and was hit by the wave of heat and humidity. ~Into the arms of hot, sunny Singapore…I’m back. But, am I back? I have led the past week in motion blurness…living, but not entirely…only wishing to dive under my covers and hibernate through the lasts of winter in my mind.

Not that life is bad per se. Just not beautiful…not beautiful like a holiday. A winter holiday to be exact – where skies are a beautiful blue-grey, where the cold winds dance as we huddle for warmth, where the heart is light with a melodic tune playing within and where shoulders are free of the burdens of everyday life. It was a sweet surreal dream and I wish that father-time had been kind to prolong the moment…or even freeze the moment. But, as like always, these mystical creatures have never paid any heed to my pleas, and never will. Sadly, I stand all alone. I only wish my ‘magic porridge pot’ of strength will never run out… As i search for the ray of light to illuminate my path and lead me towards my neverland.

Here are snap shots of the one sweet dream that i just had, if any of you is interested in peeking. The stillness of the images do not hold justice to the feeling of euphoric high..but oh well. 🙂

http://www.flickr.com/photos/scones_n_strawberryjam/sets/72157600034225859/