When Night Falls…

It brings along emptiness and loneliness.
I tuck myself in early,
To try and sleep away the darkness.

With moist eyes,
I finally succumb to the melatonin at work –
Only to face the terrors of a restless mind in sleep.
I gasp awake at the wrenching of my heart that shoots through my being,
And find myself back at square one…

Longing, and counting sheep.

😦

If I had known it was going to end,

I would have…
laughed a little harder,
kissed and hugged a little stronger,
glanced a little longer,
and lingered till I could linger no further. 

希望下雨天你們都會有人陪

下雨天了怎麼辦 我好想你 我不敢打給你 我找不到原因 為什麼失眠的聲音 變得好熟悉 沈默的場景 做你的代替 陪我等雨停 期待讓人越來越沉溺 誰和我一樣 等不到他的誰 愛上你我總在學會 寂寞的滋味 一個人撐傘 一個人擦淚 一個人好累 怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜 怎樣的我能讓你更想念 雨要多大 天要多黑 才能夠有你的體貼 其實 沒有我你分不出…

So I’ve said it.

I’ve mustered up courage and said goodbye to the wall.
…with lesser tears this time.
I’m getting good at numbing my heart, and numbing my brains.
// this impractical thing called love throws one completely off balance and off rational. When the one you love does not love back, the rational being would walk off with pride and dignity. But, this ridiculous thing called love engulfs you whole and knocks away all your senses. It makes you try and make the person love you back. Which of course, is impossible when you put it down in text. So now that I’ve said it. walk away… walk away, Walk away.  

The darn Wall

I try to reach,

But there’s this wall – this darn wall.
This Wall crept in and sprung me a surprise.
Throwing me off balanced and confused.
I try going against it,
Slamming and throwing myself .
I end up bruising, but smile and try again.
smile, and try again…smile, and try again
When will I stop?